Welfare

First of all, I would just like to point out that I am very sensitive to the less fortunate people that populate the Earth.  I spent a lot of time as a child giving back to my community doing things like volunteering in the soup kitchens, or purchasing gifts for toys for tots, raising money for less fortunate families around my community, so yes, realize before reading any further, that i do have a heart and I am sensitive to less fortunate people, so don't come back and attack me saying that I'm a heartless bitch.
What really pisses me off when I go to work is the fact that, part of my paycheck is deducted to go towards "welfare".  I do realize that sometimes people are out of a job or have a low paying job and need assistance from the government to support their family.  I realize that children are expensive and sometimes it's necessary to obtain food stamps so that your family can eat, but what I can't fucking stand is when you have some lazy ass mother fucker who won't get up and find a job and feels the need to sit on the couch all day and collect welfare. Bitch I don't wanna support your lazy ass.  There's a little thing called getting a loan and going to college, and if you can't get a loan yourself, then ask someone with good credit to help you by cosigning.  There ARE ways to be dismissed from a cosign, believe it or not.
A prime example:
My ex boyfriend.  He moves out of his mom's house to go live with his ex step father.  (That's a whole different story).  First of all, you have to know that when applying for food stamps, you are supposed to base on the income of the whole house hold.  So it was my ex, and his ex stepfather living in this house.  His ex stepfather worked for a company where he was making six figures.  What my ex did was he based his food stamps off of his mother's house hold which had virtually no income, so he basically cheated the system because he didn't want to get a job.  That's the bullshit that I can't stand.  Then, when he did finally get a job, he said he had just taken it to basically fuck over his co worker and would most likely get fired in the end.  What a winner, right?  It makes me wonder why I even dated him in the first place.
The point is, I don't work my ass off to support others.  If you're out there sitting on your ass depending on the government to help you, you should probably go fuck yourself.  Get off the fucking couch and look for a job....any job.  There is no reason that money should come out of my hard earned paycheck to support someone who just wants to be lazy.

Ebonics/Abbreviations

An actual language?  Really?  What do you think of when someone says the word "ebonics"?  Personally, I think of a trashy ghetto man walking around holding his crotch speaking improper English saying "axt" instead of "asked", yet somehow, people are rebelling and trying to make this a proper language.  "Dat" is NOT a proper form of "that".  You just sound fucking stupid.  
According to Urban Dictionary:

Ebonics is really the study of the rules applied to turn English into some uneducated sounding pseudo-language whose purpose is for the most part to insult and denigrate "Whitey." Here is what I learned in Ebonics 1 :

i) In any English word with a contraction, eliminate the apostrophe and any letters after it.
1) Is it alright if I rollerskate through the campus ?
English) Yes, it's alright
Ebonics) It OK
ii) In a word ending in "d," substitute "dt" or "oodt."
English) That's all very fine...
Ebonics) That all reeeal gooudt....
iii) In a word ending in "ore," eliminate everything after the first "o" and add an apostrophe.
English) I won't tell you again, please shut the door.
Ebonics) I ain tellin you no mo', shet de do' !!
iv) For suffixes with 2 identical consonants followed by "er," eliminate the "er."
English) That Negro was larger and was holding a pistol.
Ebonics) Mah nigga was bigga had his fingah on yo' trigga.
v) In general, most "er"s are dropped and replaced by "ah."
English) Tower of Power
Ebonics) Towah of Powah
vi) However, in the case of a plural, "ers" is replaced by "az."
English) Negroes
Ebonics) niggaz
Now, a brief poem :
They go my niggaz all up in da hooudt,
Niggaz be pimpin' just like dey shooudt,
Leroy drive his Caddy right into a dee-itch
'Cause his punk-ass homey is too much of a bee-itch
Sistah on the pipe she hit on da stem
Homeboy got his ass in jail ageein'
Got me a supakool layin' in da free-idge
Niggaz be flyin' high off'n da bree-idge
Sambo fucked up, he high on dat sherm
Bustin up a cap hey cuz got de germ 

Is it really that hard to speak proper English?  If you walk around abbreviating everything, no one is ever going to take you seriously.  Like I said, it just makes you look stupid, and just adds to the "stupid Americans" stereotype.  Yes I understand that there is a time to be professional and a time to be casual, but being casual doesn't mean that you should walk around saying "wit" instead of "with".  Being casual means that you can be with your friends and call them "shitheads" or "fucktards".  You wouldn't go up to your boss and call him a "twat-waffle".  Another thing is this whole abbreviation thing.  I get emails from people saying things like:
"wud u lyke 2 hang out l8r?"
That shit seriously pisses me off.  Does it really take that much time to spell things correctly?  I can understand an occasional "u" instead of "you" or a "2" instead of "to" but seriously those are two and three letter words.  how goddamn hard is it for you to find the letters on your keyboard?  And, "lyke"?  All that is, is replacing a fucking "i" with a "y".  You wouldn't type like this if you were typing a memo for a very large popular company would you?  NO!  So what the hell makes you think that I wan't to receive a message like that?




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Giving Someone Your Life Story

There are a few things you just don't do right after meeting someone.  One of those things is telling them your life story.  This is one of the things that just pushes people away.  Right after you meet someone, you don't want to know about every person they've ever dated or every problem they've ever had.
When I was a sophomore in college, I was plagued with having a roommate for the first semester.  As soon as she found out that I was going to be her roommate, she started e-mailing and texting me all day, every day.  I hadn't even met her yet!  She had just looked on the school's website and seen that her and I would be sharing a room together.  She would send me messages while I was at work and then get mad at me when i didn't send her a message back right away.  Within the first week of her talking to me, she had told me literally everything about her.  Within the first two days, she had told me all about how her littler brother had come out of the closet to her father by sitting in the basement with a gun to his head.  Seriously?  That sounded a little dramatic and quite frankly, I didn't really care.
The weekend after meeting her, i was sitting at home with my boyfriend and she called me crying because her boyfriend told her that he was gay.  She later found out that he was lying to her to get her away from him.  Maybe that should have been a hint to her to just fuck off.  Not to mention, this girl was just a psycho whore. and by psycho whore, I mean she was mentally crazy, and she was a fucking slut.
The first two weeks we were at college, she had slept with right around seven guys.  She looked for guys online ALL the time so that she would go on dates.  I actually felt sorry for her because she was acting so desperate.  Maybe her problem was that she looked like a straight up boy.  But, that's probably why her current boyfriend had an attraction to her.  We all think he was a world class homo.
He wasn't any less psychotic than she was.  He had her move in with him, and then had his friends hold her at gunpoint and threaten to rape her.  They then ended up robbing them of all of their electronics and leaving.  The two of them made the newspaper the next day.  He would write me notes and leave them in my room telling me how crazy I was, so I had to take it to the police.  One night, I came back from dinner and he was going through my closet.  I felt extremely violated, so I had to make it so that he wasn't allowed back into our room.  My roommate kept saying that I kept locking her out of our room, but the thing was, she lived with her boyfriend, I didn't know when she was coming back, and i wasn't just going to leave the room unlocked so just anyone could walk in.
We had to have a mediation in December, right before we broke for Winter break.  I ended up writing a letter to the housing department, and she had to move out before everyone left.  She decided she was going to bring her boyfriend to our room to help her move out, and i'll admit, I went apeshit, because he wasn't supposed to be there.
The next semester I came back and had my own room, but my old roommate decided to seek confidence in some of my friends that she had met.  I remember one day, she was in the lobby of our building crying, with her phone ringing every five seconds.  It was her boyfriend calling to tell her that she was fat and that she had a huge pussy and how ugly she was and all this other bullshit.  I guessed I couldn't just leave her crying there, so I went to talk to her along with one of my other friends.  We all had an intervention with the police, seeing as her boyfriend had been kicked off campus earlier that day for trying to run her over with a car.  He was also in the process of being evicted from his apartment and being investigated by the police for stealing thousands of dollars from his grandfather.  What a winner right.

Anyway, the point of this story is, you don't fucking tell people your life story right after meeting them.  All it does is push them away and make them not want to talk to you.


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Body Modification

On thing I have been very passionate about ever since I was a child is self expression.  I have always been very blunt and I express myself openly, whether it's in words, art, or body language e.c.t.  I believe that everyone should have the right to express themselves in any way they choose.  This goes back to my post about Slaughtered Vomit Dolls, and The Human Centipede.  Although some people find these films to be extremely offensive and grotesque, but this is just two director's way of expressing themselves to the world.
Another way of self expression in presented in everyday life.  This is the self expression known as "Body Modification".  When someone thinks of "body modification", they think of people pushing it to the extremes, and this just isn't the case.  Body modification could be something as small as dying your hair or painting your nails, two things that women do on a day to day basis.
Body modification is defined as: any modification done to the body.
I grew up in a home on traditional Lutheran: Missouri Synod values.  My parents were very in to their beliefs and often times pushed them on me.  I was always told that you aren't supposed to change your body because it is "displeasing to God".  Yet, I watched as my mom and I would get our hair and nails done every other week.  She let me get my ears pierced when I was six.  This all falls in the category of body modification.
I used to watch shows such as "Miami Ink" watching people get tattoos, and I think that may be where my obsession began.  My mom went with me to get my first tattoo when I was seventeen.  Her and my father didn't want me to get anymore ink done, but once you're under the needle once, it kind of becomes an addiction, and I find it pretty hard to stop.  This is my way of self expression.  I'd try my best to hide it from my parents but they'd always find out and be "disappointed".  They just don't see it they way i do.  Since I was fifteen, I've had twelve piercings and thirteen tattoos.
One question that plagues mankind is "Why do people modify themselves?"  I actually did a project on this my sophomore year in college.  I learned that people do this for one of four reasons:
1. Aesthetic Value
2. Sexual Enhancement
3. Religious Aspect
4. Shock Value
I am an example of modifying myself for aesthetic value.  My piercings, which include:
1, 2 Industrial- two piercings that run from the helix of the ear to the cartilage
3,4,5, 6. Four standard lobe piercings
7, 8. Two cartilage piercings
9. Nose piercing
10. Monroe- which is a lip piercing which is supposed to simulate the mole that Marilyn Monroe had
11.Tongue Piercing
12. Belly button piercing
I find that having these make me more aesthetically pleasing to myself.  I do fully intend on getting the dimples on my cheeks done, basically because I think they're cute and I have a round face, so I can pull them off.  I did have a microdermal piercing in my hip, which recently rejected and I had to remove, so I intend on getting this put back in, most likely in my wrist.
For those of you who don't know what a mircrodermal piercing is, it's a piercing that can go basically anywhere.  There is a small footing that is inserted under the skin, and normally a gem which protrudes out of the skin.  the head on this piercing screws in and out and can be changed after the piercing is healed.  It's much easier to Google the piercing to get a better feel for what they are.
The insertion process for these is a little more complicated than that of a piercing.  Instead of just inserting a needle and jewelry straight through the skin, either a dermal punch (which is like a very tiny cookie cutter) or a 12 gauge needle is used to core out a small section of skin, and then the jewelry is inserted under the skin.  They do have YouTube videos depicting this process if you have any interest in watching.
My tattoos all have a meaning to them.  My first as i said, I got done when I was seventeen years old.  It is a memorial for my grandfather who was a WWII veteran.  My second on got on my eighteenth birthday, and it says "I Alone" it stands for my independence.  The third is the Kanji symbol for daughter.  Fourth I got after going through three months of abuse and trying to recover.  It says "I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday, and I love today" and there is a yellow ribbon next to it symbolizing new beginnings.  Fifth is a honey bee which I got because my name means honey bee.  Sixth is a logo for my favorite band, Mindless Self Indulgence.  Seventh is a ring tattoo of the claddaugh.  Eighth is a line of Hibiscus down my ribs with the saying "who I am is quite enough.  Ninth, a black light tattoo for my father of the Fire department logo with his badge number in it.  Tenth another black light tattoo that says "fuckin classy", basically because that's what I stand for, class.  Eleventh, a Gaelic saying I got on my back for my family with shamrocks.  Since I was adopted I found the perfect quote that says "it is not in flesh and blood, but in the heart that we are fathers and sons."  Twelfth is a brutal cupcake that my artist drew right on me freehand in the studio.  I've always had an obsession with cupcakes but I'm not real girly so I figured a brutal cupcake would just scream "Melissa-J."  Lastly was a saying that an old friend of mine and I decided to get in each other's writing saying "you are perfect".  After him and I stopped talking I covered it up with brass knuckles, blood splatter and the saying "Beauty Killer underneath it.
People who get modified for sexual enhancement are mostly the people who get modifications done to their genetials, such as shown in the documentaries "Modify" and "Flesh & Blood."  even my tongue piercing could be looked as at a modification for sexual enhancement.
In some religions such as Hinduism, modification is required.  There are also some tribes that modify the body for different ceremonies and such.  Some ceremonies of body modification are performed to show a boy transitioning to a man or a girl transitioning to a woman.  Many of these ceremonies have been shown on the television show "Taboo" on the "National Geographic Channel".  Dennis Avner is a great example of someone being modified for their religion.  His story is told in both "Modify" and "Flesh & Blood.
Then, there are people who are modified for shock value.  These are the people who participate in flesh suspensions, or who modify themselves just to make people look.  The Lizard Man, or Eric Sprague is a good example of this.  Many of the people on the internet who have been modified to the extreme are also great examples of this.
In conclusion, body modification is something that really inspires me.  To me it's a very beautiful form of self expression.

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The Lottery

Every Tuesday night, my parents and I used to go out for dinner to a local family bar and grill.  My dad would always buy a mega millions lottery ticket and while we were at dinner, my parents would always converse about what they would do with the money if they won.  It always ended with me giving them a reality check and telling him that they were never going to win.  My dad would always say, "but we could...".
I dated a boy while I was in college.  His parents both had jobs, but still didn't make as much money as the average family.  He told me that every week his father would drop about 30-40 dollars buying all sorts of lottery tickets and such.  But, they never won.  This is just a concept that I never understood.
The only lottery I ever participated in was when my dad bought me those one dollar tickets, only because i liked to scratch off the different sections to see what was underneath the silver paint.  Normally you only win MAYBE five bucks per ticket.  I actually watched my cousin win about ten dollars off of one when we were ten years old.
I guess I just never understood why people would pay so much money for lottery tickets when they know they aren't going to win.  That's money that you could be using on groceries or taking your family for a night out.
I'd love to have different opinions of people, those who play/buy lottery tickets and those who don't, because my personal opinion is that, it's just plain stupid and a waste of money.



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Slaughtered Vomit Dolls

"Slaughtered Vomit Dolls" is a film by a Director named Lucifer Valentine.  This is a stage name seeing as Mr. Valentine is very private about his true identity.  He is the director of the "Vomit Gore Trilogy" which includes "Slaughtered Vomit Dolls", "ReGOREgitation Sacrifice", and "Slow Torture Puke Chamber.
The Trilogy follows a girl named Angela Aberdeen (Ameara LaVey), as she becomes a runaway stripper who turns into a prostitute.  In the movie, she sells her soul to the devil and spirals down on hellish, satanic hallucinations. Each movie picks up where the last one left off. Throughout this trilogy, there is a pattern of "vomit-fucking" and then gruesome dismemberment.  It's not really a horror movie as much as it is a "torture porn".
Why the fuck would someone make a movie such as this?  I asked myself the same question upon reading the synopsis on IMDB.  So, being the curious person that I am, I wanted to investigate the reasoning behind the making of these movies.  The best source I found, was an interview conducted by Pamela Torres of Punk Globe.
First and foremost, we learn from the interview that Mr. Valentine was born and raised as a "Satanist".  I do not applaud this choice of religion, however it is fact, and it also explains where Mr. Valentine pulled his stage name from.  Next, we have to dig in and find out where the inspiration for this movie came from.  According to Mr. Valentine, this movie was basically a "real life" film.  He had met Miss LaVey at a few parties and she was drawn to him.   LaVey herself was currently a bulimic, working as a hardcore pornstar.  Valentine describes her as being a drug addict weighing barely ninety two pounds who was barely alive.  Valentine was not really interested in her to begin with but finally gave in and went out with her.  One night, Miss. LaVey was kicked out of her home with only a change of clothes and a carton of milk.  She showed up at Mr. Valentine's door and he agreed to let her live there and take care of her as long as she would allow him to film her whenever he wanted, and do whatever he asked of her.  He was filming her detox around the clock, and therefore "Slaughtered Vomit Dolls" was born.
In one scene, Angela drowns herself in a bathtub after an overdose.  This is relevant, because, Mr. Valentine had an obsession with Nirvana singer, Kurt Cobain.  In the movie, Angela drowns herself on the same date that Kurt Cobain committed suicide.  This is also relevant seeing as, many people say that Mr. Valentine had an incest relationship with his little sister, Cinderella.  He answered that she was his girlfriend and they probably would have gotten married if she hadn't committed suicide on New Year's Eve, 2006.  Cinderella drowned herself in the bathtub after an overdose, the same way Angela does in the movie.  Mr. Valentine says that she had simulated this many times because she was jealous of his relationship with Miss. LaVey and he even filmed it.  He never thought that she would actually do it.  Footage of Cinderella's simulation of this suicide is shown in "ReGOREgitated Sacrifice".
Mr. Valentine is an Emetaphiliac which means that he is sexually aroused by vomiting.  He is also into incest, necrophilia, and bestiality, and says that he wants to make movies that fall into these categories.  I personally don't agree with most of the things that Mr. Valentine stands for, however, i do believe that his movies could send a message to the general public about drug use.

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Juggalos

Almost everyone in my generation has heard of the "Juggalo Family" and know what it is.  For the people who don't, it's basically a group of individuals who are lazy, sometimes overly obese, and sit on the couch all day eating chips, drinking Faygo (only because it's cheap) and listening to I.C.P. or Insane Clown Posse.  Sometimes they call themselves the "Hatchet Warriors".
The men call themselves "Juggalos" while the women call themselves "Juggalettes".  They believe that they are a group of people who are a "family" and will help each other out if a "fellow Juggalo" is in need.  I personally believe that this concept is extremely stupid and far-fetched.  I basically believe this because, this specific group of people most likely doesn't even know that they are supporting the criminals involved in the "Hatchet Murders".
The Hatchet Murders were basically a group of people who went around killing individuals with hatchets, obviously.  Innocent people lost their lives, and families were in mourning over these deaths, yet some stupid ignorant teenagers think that it's cool to follow some musical groups who support such a thing.
The music is probably even worse than the concept that they support.  At concerts, which are mostly played with other "bands" which is in quotations, because they really aren't bands, just the same members under different names that all play at festivals called "Gathering of the Juggalos", and the "band" members indulge in spraying the audience with bottles of cheap Faygo and like to paint their faces ridiculously, trying to look like clowns, and come up with stupid fucking expressions such as "are you down with the clownz."  Fucking kill me.  They're lyrics are so deep too.  From the song "Miracles" by I.C.P.  "I've seen shit that'll shock you're eye lids, the sun and the moon and even mars, the milky way and fuckin shooting stars" from the same song, "I fed a fish to a pelican at Frisco Bay.  It tried to eat my cellphone (he ran away)."  and yet again, "Water, fire, air, and dirt.  Fucking magnets, how do they work?"
Okay seriously, things don't "shock your eyelids".  I'm pretty sure you see things with your EYES.  If it's shocking your "eyelids" that means your eyes are closed.  Is it just me or is the language pretty unnecessary in basically all of these lyrics.  I'm pretty sure a pelican wouldn't try to eat your cellphone, and where did he get the fish anyway.  Oh, and if you want to know how magnets work, maybe you should go back to the first grade when the concept of north poles attracting to south poles was taught, and that they attract, and that when you have two different poles that are alike..they repel.  Juuuust a thought.
I've always been for the "keep illegal immigrants, deport the Juggalos movement".  This is because, the illegal immigrants are taking all of the jobs that could go to the Juggalos, but no, they're too busy drinking their cheap ass Faygo, sitting on their mother's couch eating chips and listening to their shitty music, which includes:
I.C.P., Anybody Killa, Twiztid, Blaze Ya Dead Homie, Boondox, The Dayton Family, Dark Lotus, Psychopathic Rydas, Tech N9ne, Axe Murder Boyz, Kid Crusher, Vanilla Ice, Scum, Boo Clan, Brotha Lynch Hung, Killa C, Liquid Assassin, Mars, Kung Fu Vampire, Kottonmouth Kings, Esham.  There's probably more, so feel free to comment and add!


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